And calling the crowd to him with his disciples, he said to
them, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his
cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses
his life for my sake and the gospel's will save it. For what does it profit a
man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul? For what can a man give in
return for his soul? For whoever is ashamed of me and of my words in this
adulterous and sinful generation, of him will the Son of Man also be ashamed
when he comes in the glory of his Father with the holy angels.”
(Mark
8:34-38 ESV)
These
words echo in my mind constantly, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny
himself and take up his cross and follow me.” Jesus straight up says what we
must do, yet I often wonder if I am really living it out. I mean, what does it
mean to deny myself? How does one take up their cross? As with all things I
guess we just have to pick a place and start digging in to the Word and pray
that God will reveal to us the answers we seek.
Let’s separate this verse and take
it apart step by step starting with “let him deny himself” Deny means to
restrain (oneself) from gratification of desires according to Webster’s. So to
deny myself means I have to put not just the things I desire aside, but also
the gratification of seeing those desires fulfilled. I then suspend the longing of going after AND
the joy of getting what I want in order to follow Jesus. That is by no means an easy task for someone
to commit to. There are things in this world I want to do and pursue. I want to
see the Northern Lights in the midst of the Alaskan Wilderness, I want to dive
the Great Barrier Reef of Australia, and walk the back roads of Scotland. I
want to go to college and get my Degree in Missions, I want to be a Missionary
to Africa, I want to get my Doctorate in Apologetics and retire to pastor a
local church near a University I can teach at. But to see every desire and goal
fulfiled and have missed following Jesus would make it all mean nothing. There
is a sacrifice involved in obedience, and Jesus wants everyone to be clear that
follow Him means denying you!
Next comes the phrase “take up his
cross.” First, I think we need to define
what the cross is. The cross was first used in Israel during the Hellenistic
times. It was here upon the cross that the Greeks hung the Jews that would not
conform to the “Greek way of life.”(Myers) Thus the cross becomes a symbol of a
person’s refusal to depart from their values and beliefs. When hung on a cross, one first was flogged
and then forced to carry their own cross to the place of execution. When Jesus
says you must take up your cross, he is making two things clear. First, that
following him will be evident to everyone around you. When I person is walking
down a street with a big ole cross on his back, people notice. Second, He is
letting you know that there is a price, a burden that is to come when you
follow Him. John 3:19-21 tells us that Christ is the light that exposes
darkness and evil men hate the light because it shows who they really are. If
you then follow after Christ you become a reflection of that light that exposes
the sin of man. When faced with truth we are forced to either accept it or
reject it. Thus is the price of following Christ often becomes the rejection of
the world.
So to
follow Christ I must lay down my desires, my life becomes public, and many will
reject me. Where do I sign up? The cost seems high, but that is only because it
is. The last verse of our orginal passage is filled with both a harsh reality
and a joyous celebration. Jesus puts it as simple and clear as he possible can.
He says deny me before man and I will deny you before my father. If Christ is
our hope of salvation, then to be denied by Christ would mean to be denied of
our salvation. Wow, that is kind of a big deal! The reality of it is you aren’t
going to sneak in to Heaven, you aren't going to tip toe around the hard
decisions. A choice will always have to be made, but the joy in that statement
is the other side. Deny Christ and Christ will deny you, but live for Christ
unashamedly and enter in to the “Glory of the His Father and the holy Angels.
